Dear God,

I'm coming to you in so many ways. I'm talking out loud, crying rivers, and writing books. I see people struggling daily. I am one of them. There are so many people going through so much. Please grant them the wisdom and courage to face what frightens them most. Help them understand and help them find peace within themselves. I send special prayers to you on Kimmi's behalf. She needs you in her corner now more than ever. Please continue to take care of Derek and his family as well, as their battle is far from over. For all of those in my heart, please continue to bless them and keep them close to You.

My uncle is on a road to self-destruction. I know that You are aware. I am so afraid Lord. My family is helpless. He is destroying us, but most of all, he is destroying himself. The drugs are taking their toll on his body, for they have already taken over his mind. Please God, help him. Guide him in a direction that leads to peace. Whichever direction You see fit we have no choice but to accept. I know that if he doesn't stop, these toxins will kill him. I don't want to bury him, or anyone else in my family, for that matter. However, I know that it might be becoming too late to get him to change. Please grant me and my family (especially my grandmother) the ability to change what we can and accept what we cannot. Please help me to help them. My grandmother is so fragile because of her son's actions. Help her not to lose her faith. God, help me to not give up on mine. Life is a series of trials, and I have passed so many test. Please do not let me get weary now. If things do not get better, please help me accept and prepare myself for what You have in store. I want him to get help, get better. But I give this struggle to You, hoping that he will turn himself over to You as well. He cannot do this alone, as I cannot face it alone. Please God, help him, guide him, help him seek and find redemption. 

I ask these things in Your Son Jesus Christ,

Amen